I'm still alive
Must have been a miracle
It's been a hell of ride
Destination still unknown
It's a fact of life:
If you make one wrong move with the gun to your head
You better walk the line or you'll be left for dead
I'm a runaway train on broken track
I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time
That's right
I got away with it all and I'm still alive
Let the end of the world come tumbling down
I'll be the last man standing on the ground
As long as hot blood runs trough my veins
I'm still alive
Lost in the night
Feeling so invisible
Oh, a dead man walking the wire
High above the devils net
That's made of fire
And it's a long way down from the top of the world
You better look around or you gonna get burned
I'm a runaway train on broken track
I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time
That's right
I got away with it all and I'm still alive
Let the end of the world come tumbling down
I'll be the last man standing on the ground
And as the dust wheels look in my eyes
I'm still alive
I'm still alive
The darkest night ain't black enough
To keep the morning light from shinin'
The highest wall ain't tall enough
To keep the smallest man from climbin'
The more that you resist the tide
The more it pulls you in
The more you hang on for your life
(I'm a runaway train on broken track)
(I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time)
(that's right)
That's right
I got away with it all and I'm still alive
I'm a runaway train on broken track
I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time
That's right
I got away with it all and I'm still alive
Let the end of the world come tumbling down
I'll be the last man standing on the ground
And if my shadow's all that survives
I'm still alive
I'm still alive...
The World We Live In
Day to day life is a constant struggle between acceptance and intolerance. Do I let this person off or do I beat him to a pulp? To beat or not to beat? That is the question which plagues us each day. Does this feral deserve to go on living? Is this person worth the effort of annihilation? Here's a moral dilemma to consider.
You're at a bar with you girlfriend enjoying the peaceful atmosphere when in stroll a bunch of tattooed greasy fuck lumps to ruin your otherwise splendid evening. You choose to ignore them and enjoy your night out. While having a deep and meaningful with the angelic beauty before you one of these undesirable scum bags struts over to you table, pulls up a chair, and so all the patrons in the bar can hear utters the words "Ya wanna drop this fag and come be the pig on a spit with me and my mates?"
He's offended you, but even worse, he has offended the woman you admire the most. Do you ignore him and hope he goes away? Do you sit back and let her embarrass and belittle him in front of his gang because you know she is strong and capable? Or, do you you get up and make a stand to defend her honour knowing there is only one of you and five of them?
The sad fact is most of the guys that would make a stand are viewed as doing so for their own pride, most of the guys who choose to ignore the guy are seen to be doing so out of fear and intimidation, and the guy who let's the woman take care of herself is viewed by most as being weak and cowardly.
Other side of the fact is that only a few of the first group are doing so out of some chivalrous set of values, only a few from the second group ignore him due to intelligence, and only a few from the third group see the female as an equal.
We're still in an old fashioned world with old fashioned values and people do not change their ways readily despite how easy it is. There are far too many successful cold turkey quitters to justify any sympathy for smokers who use the addiction as an excuse for not giving it up. There are far too many cold turkey quitters to justify feeling any sympathy for relapsing alcoholics. There is no justification for harming another being unprovoked yet people still do it.
The world tolerates situations it should be fixing. The world could do more to cater for the disabled. The world should do less to cater for the morbidly obese. Instead of raising cigarette prices just abolish them all together, yes people will complain but they'll eventually get over it when they can breathe properly. The world keeps making cars that run on fossil fuels to keep the oil companies happy. How about making cars that just run on battery power to keep the battery companies happy?
Just a thought.
You're at a bar with you girlfriend enjoying the peaceful atmosphere when in stroll a bunch of tattooed greasy fuck lumps to ruin your otherwise splendid evening. You choose to ignore them and enjoy your night out. While having a deep and meaningful with the angelic beauty before you one of these undesirable scum bags struts over to you table, pulls up a chair, and so all the patrons in the bar can hear utters the words "Ya wanna drop this fag and come be the pig on a spit with me and my mates?"
He's offended you, but even worse, he has offended the woman you admire the most. Do you ignore him and hope he goes away? Do you sit back and let her embarrass and belittle him in front of his gang because you know she is strong and capable? Or, do you you get up and make a stand to defend her honour knowing there is only one of you and five of them?
The sad fact is most of the guys that would make a stand are viewed as doing so for their own pride, most of the guys who choose to ignore the guy are seen to be doing so out of fear and intimidation, and the guy who let's the woman take care of herself is viewed by most as being weak and cowardly.
Other side of the fact is that only a few of the first group are doing so out of some chivalrous set of values, only a few from the second group ignore him due to intelligence, and only a few from the third group see the female as an equal.
We're still in an old fashioned world with old fashioned values and people do not change their ways readily despite how easy it is. There are far too many successful cold turkey quitters to justify any sympathy for smokers who use the addiction as an excuse for not giving it up. There are far too many cold turkey quitters to justify feeling any sympathy for relapsing alcoholics. There is no justification for harming another being unprovoked yet people still do it.
The world tolerates situations it should be fixing. The world could do more to cater for the disabled. The world should do less to cater for the morbidly obese. Instead of raising cigarette prices just abolish them all together, yes people will complain but they'll eventually get over it when they can breathe properly. The world keeps making cars that run on fossil fuels to keep the oil companies happy. How about making cars that just run on battery power to keep the battery companies happy?
Just a thought.
Meh
4:17 P.M.
Meh.
There's a lawn that needs mowing. There's a mower in the garage. I have an assessment in less than 2 weeks, I should study up. Meh.
I would have a lot more day to day enthusiasm if it didn't seem that I can't scratch myself without some bullshit problem occurring the very next day.
You can't make everyone happy all the time. That doesn't bother me. What bothers me is those unhappy fuckers putting their 10 cents worth into what doesn't concern them and creating problems for others who are just trying to do their best to get a fair go and give others a fair go. Unfortunately there's always one or two selfish sods who consider themselves to be above everyone else, the people that bitch and moan until they get their own way, the people that believe the rules only apply to everyone else, the people that like to boss others around to make themselves feel good, the people that keep stepping out of line and crossing the mark because others are intimidated by them and won't stop them. Because of this these people get to waltz around feeling important while throwing their weight around and the people who are in charge sit back and let it happen. Why? Because when it comes down to it that's all they can do. Some one steps out of line all they get as punishment is a pleasant conversation over tea and scones which shits me because the people who basically get penalised are people who are trying to get things right.
So yeah... meh.
Meh.
There's a lawn that needs mowing. There's a mower in the garage. I have an assessment in less than 2 weeks, I should study up. Meh.
I would have a lot more day to day enthusiasm if it didn't seem that I can't scratch myself without some bullshit problem occurring the very next day.
You can't make everyone happy all the time. That doesn't bother me. What bothers me is those unhappy fuckers putting their 10 cents worth into what doesn't concern them and creating problems for others who are just trying to do their best to get a fair go and give others a fair go. Unfortunately there's always one or two selfish sods who consider themselves to be above everyone else, the people that bitch and moan until they get their own way, the people that believe the rules only apply to everyone else, the people that like to boss others around to make themselves feel good, the people that keep stepping out of line and crossing the mark because others are intimidated by them and won't stop them. Because of this these people get to waltz around feeling important while throwing their weight around and the people who are in charge sit back and let it happen. Why? Because when it comes down to it that's all they can do. Some one steps out of line all they get as punishment is a pleasant conversation over tea and scones which shits me because the people who basically get penalised are people who are trying to get things right.
So yeah... meh.
Another Day
1:12 P.M. Tuesday, 11th of May 2010.
There's $10.35 in my wallet.
All I feel like doing is sleeping. What I want to do is beat the living shit out of one or two painfully irritating people who have no business inhaling oxygen in this universe. It's an interesting sensation feeling the desire to behead a person with a blunt object yet having no motivation to even bother holding a begrudged conversation. The mind says "Fuck 'em," the body says "fuck it."
On one hand I'm over it. On the other hand I'll show the bastards. You can't keep me down. I'll take whatever bullshit you can throw at me and when it's over and done with if I've gone anywhere, I've gone higher up. I won't lower myself to anyone else's standards. There's better people than me out there, there's also far worse!
The unfortunate truth.
There's $10.35 in my wallet.
All I feel like doing is sleeping. What I want to do is beat the living shit out of one or two painfully irritating people who have no business inhaling oxygen in this universe. It's an interesting sensation feeling the desire to behead a person with a blunt object yet having no motivation to even bother holding a begrudged conversation. The mind says "Fuck 'em," the body says "fuck it."
On one hand I'm over it. On the other hand I'll show the bastards. You can't keep me down. I'll take whatever bullshit you can throw at me and when it's over and done with if I've gone anywhere, I've gone higher up. I won't lower myself to anyone else's standards. There's better people than me out there, there's also far worse!
The unfortunate truth.
New Layout
Well I got bored with the old layout. Everything was squished over to the left so the right side of the screen was pretty empty looking. I'm much happier with this new layout. It's more centred, it's more open, It's more inviting. Enjoy :)
Something in the water?
What's going on? Everywhere I look there's pregnant teenagers, or mothers in their early twenties with children old enough to have a detailed intelligent conversation with. How hard is it to use a prophylactic? Or even better - keep it in your pants. A twelve year old recently gave birth somewhere in Europe, and what did she tell the interviewer? "I will not play with toys any more. I have a new toy now." What on earth are parents teaching their children today?
Kids are meant to be riding their bicycles not riding each other! Mums and Dads, it's not kidnapping if you lock your own child in the house at night. When I was at school we got the theory based sexual education, we didn't go out to try the practical.
There's plenty of other things to do with your time kids! There's plenty of other ways to get exercise. American Pie was not intended as a documentary for f__k's sake! Once upon a time a guy had to get permission off the young lady's father before courting her. These days the parents are the last to know... which in some ways might be a good thing but come on! When Mummy discovers Daddy's little girl is up the duff by reading it on facebook we know there is something epically wrong with society.
How hard is it to let your child have a life while keeping control of it? At some point the parent has to gradually step back and say "OK kiddo, it's your life, you're making all your own decisions." That point should not be while the kid still hasn't sprouted pubic hair.
The unfortunate truth.
Kids are meant to be riding their bicycles not riding each other! Mums and Dads, it's not kidnapping if you lock your own child in the house at night. When I was at school we got the theory based sexual education, we didn't go out to try the practical.
There's plenty of other things to do with your time kids! There's plenty of other ways to get exercise. American Pie was not intended as a documentary for f__k's sake! Once upon a time a guy had to get permission off the young lady's father before courting her. These days the parents are the last to know... which in some ways might be a good thing but come on! When Mummy discovers Daddy's little girl is up the duff by reading it on facebook we know there is something epically wrong with society.
How hard is it to let your child have a life while keeping control of it? At some point the parent has to gradually step back and say "OK kiddo, it's your life, you're making all your own decisions." That point should not be while the kid still hasn't sprouted pubic hair.
The unfortunate truth.
Contemplating Life
What is right? What is Wrong?
Should I write a poem or compose a song?
Battle the day and embrace the night,
Is it wrong or is it right?
Face each challenge with open arms,
Keep those we love free from harm,
If we could by any means,
Life would be a come true dream.
Life. What is life exactly? A mere collection of experiences? A small step in a greater journey? An almighty power's little game? Is life predetermined? Do we make our own decisions? Is proven fact truth or just an opinion? What is truth? What is life? Is it the pursuit of knowledge? The pursuit of truth? The pursuit of happiness? Is life all about the challenge of finding a mate and producing offspring to keep the species alive long after we die?
What is death? Is it the end of consciousness? Is the consciousness the true being? Does it exist without the body? If we are reincarnations should we not be able to access memories from past lives? If we are all meant to be paired with a certain individual do we find them again in the next life? What is life?
Surely if life is pointless, if nothing we do matters in the grand scheme of things, if there really is no grand scheme, if there really is no reason or purpose, then why are we here? The answer according to me: There is no reason, we are here, get on with it, everything could disappear tomorrow. But in the end it doesn't matter. So what does matter? We could save the planet from pollution today and tomorrow it will be engulfed by the sun. In an instant we cease to exist. What was it all for? Nothing really.
The way I see it, we have the time that we have. In that time we have the potential, the opportunity to do whatever we want. We can do whatever physics and time will allow us. So the geniuses will focus on making life changing breakthroughs, the philosophers will sit back and think about everything and ultimately do nothing, the greedy and selfish will take what they can, the vindictive and petty will cause problems for others at any opportunity, the helpful and generous will do their best to do fix what they can. Why? To make themselves feel better? Because it's their nature? Because they were raised that way? Because it's the easiest thing they know how to do? For their own individual reason? Or for no reason at all?
Personally, I do what I do, I like who I like, I hate who I hate and I love who I love, that's just me. Cross the line, I cross you off the Christmas list. I feel everyone is entitled to one major mistake. I'm attracted to brunettes with brown eyes. I'm more attracted to a nice personality than a nice body.
I will go out of my way to help friends in need. If I invite you, I got you covered. If you have a problem, I will listen. Need a hug? My arms are open. I'll be polite and hold the door. I don't talk for the sake of talking, I say my piece leave it at that. I remember little things like friend's birthdays, favourite colours, and how much milk and sugar they have in their coffee. Other things I forget more easily such as appointments.
Life is made up of little things. Little things matter. Little things effect big things. It's not just what you know, it's not just who you know. It's not just what you know about who you know. Murphy's Law comes into play more than Karma. Trust takes ages to build and seconds to destroy. It's easier to fall in love with a friend than to become friends with a lover. Imperfections are not always a bad thing. A person with no visible imperfections is hiding something. First impressions do not always last. Opinions change. Rules change. People change. You can't make everyone happy all the time, there's no point in trying. You can make your self happy, you can make those close to you happy. Your true friends are still your friends if they don't like your other friends. Your true friends won't pressure you, they will support you in one way or another.
I'm not saying this is all right, just something to contemplate.
Should I write a poem or compose a song?
Battle the day and embrace the night,
Is it wrong or is it right?
Face each challenge with open arms,
Keep those we love free from harm,
If we could by any means,
Life would be a come true dream.
Life. What is life exactly? A mere collection of experiences? A small step in a greater journey? An almighty power's little game? Is life predetermined? Do we make our own decisions? Is proven fact truth or just an opinion? What is truth? What is life? Is it the pursuit of knowledge? The pursuit of truth? The pursuit of happiness? Is life all about the challenge of finding a mate and producing offspring to keep the species alive long after we die?
What is death? Is it the end of consciousness? Is the consciousness the true being? Does it exist without the body? If we are reincarnations should we not be able to access memories from past lives? If we are all meant to be paired with a certain individual do we find them again in the next life? What is life?
Surely if life is pointless, if nothing we do matters in the grand scheme of things, if there really is no grand scheme, if there really is no reason or purpose, then why are we here? The answer according to me: There is no reason, we are here, get on with it, everything could disappear tomorrow. But in the end it doesn't matter. So what does matter? We could save the planet from pollution today and tomorrow it will be engulfed by the sun. In an instant we cease to exist. What was it all for? Nothing really.
The way I see it, we have the time that we have. In that time we have the potential, the opportunity to do whatever we want. We can do whatever physics and time will allow us. So the geniuses will focus on making life changing breakthroughs, the philosophers will sit back and think about everything and ultimately do nothing, the greedy and selfish will take what they can, the vindictive and petty will cause problems for others at any opportunity, the helpful and generous will do their best to do fix what they can. Why? To make themselves feel better? Because it's their nature? Because they were raised that way? Because it's the easiest thing they know how to do? For their own individual reason? Or for no reason at all?
Personally, I do what I do, I like who I like, I hate who I hate and I love who I love, that's just me. Cross the line, I cross you off the Christmas list. I feel everyone is entitled to one major mistake. I'm attracted to brunettes with brown eyes. I'm more attracted to a nice personality than a nice body.
I will go out of my way to help friends in need. If I invite you, I got you covered. If you have a problem, I will listen. Need a hug? My arms are open. I'll be polite and hold the door. I don't talk for the sake of talking, I say my piece leave it at that. I remember little things like friend's birthdays, favourite colours, and how much milk and sugar they have in their coffee. Other things I forget more easily such as appointments.
Life is made up of little things. Little things matter. Little things effect big things. It's not just what you know, it's not just who you know. It's not just what you know about who you know. Murphy's Law comes into play more than Karma. Trust takes ages to build and seconds to destroy. It's easier to fall in love with a friend than to become friends with a lover. Imperfections are not always a bad thing. A person with no visible imperfections is hiding something. First impressions do not always last. Opinions change. Rules change. People change. You can't make everyone happy all the time, there's no point in trying. You can make your self happy, you can make those close to you happy. Your true friends are still your friends if they don't like your other friends. Your true friends won't pressure you, they will support you in one way or another.
I'm not saying this is all right, just something to contemplate.
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